Hands Clasped

Our hands clasped together as we sit on the park bench next to one another. We lean to eachother and share the perfect kiss of passion and love. My heart beats with the vigor of a warrior going into battle. Your mind set on our goals yet to achieve. Our souls shine with determination knowing what we face. We both look of into the rising sun with it brings a day of unknown that we face with true loyalty and appreciation for this love we have for eachother. I look at you as my mind lingers from memory to memory...Our first late night conversation...our first heart felt kiss...the first time we share a bed and woke up next to you lying there...how my soul smiled the biggest smile I had ever known in my life. The Lord truly has given my world the perfect reason to create a better life and not jus for myself but for you. That alone has given my soul, my heart and my mind purpose to succeed in everything that will better us. She looks at me and her soul walks through memories of us...the night we silently shared our dreams on the balcony with her wrapped in my arms and how the simple kiss on her shoulder made her feel on top of the world...the days we spent in the car driving around aimlessly and talked of random things while listening to her favorite song, Song For You by Michael Buble, how every time she heard that very song she couldn't help but take my hand in hers and then kiss my hand...How intense her heart felt the first time we met, like it could literally jump out of her chest, and how each time we looked into eachothers eyes with out shyness but with pure honest passion for the most amazing person she had ever met....how in this moment you have truly found happiness that pours out of every bit of your body. She feels the with every breathe she takes that I am hers and she is mine. Her body, her soul, her life she has given to the pursuit of happiness with the man she loves. We share a smile and without words we both not only know but feel the love that has engulfed us down to our bones. We get up as if in unison take a deep breathe as we walk off to face the world and all it has to offer soul mates who's fire burns as bright as stars. We walk with our hands clasped off to the great unknown...

Life is Love and Life is Lost

7abeebti I know life's been hard.
Sitting here with your broken heart.
Life is Love an Life is Lost
Comes with the deal just know I am here...

Watching you from across the bed,
Tears creeping into your world of sad.
I take your hand wrap my around you
and whisper, its okay.

You ask me, WHY?
and with my draining breathe
I say, "This is how life is."
a devastating fight for hope that always ends.

So live your life for the things you love,
Don't leave the world without a full heart.
with smiles, laughter and hope.
Cause when you leave your time is done.

7abeebti I know life's been hard.
Sitting here with your broken heart.
Life is Love an Life is Lost
Comes with the deal just know I am here...

I Could Lay Here In Your Touch...

Its midnight and here I lay on this bed of ours. I looked down on my chest and there you lay. Asleep to the world around you. A smile creeps to my lips as I realize I could lay here in your touch with no complaints every night till the day I leave this earth. Its moments like this that truly makes me believe that the Lord has somehow touched me and granted me more blessings then i should have. Everyday you surprise me with something new and takes me new heights. Though you may find me saying this more and more as these years continue know that every word is true. You are the best thing in my world. I look forward to the new discovery's of you. I lay my head back with that smile still upon my face and my heart completely feeling that this is the life. I hope everyone gets to experience the beauty that you have brought to me. I thank you Lord for giving such a fulfilling gift of hope and happiness that is within you, beautiful. I lean in kiss your forehead, lean my head back as I close my eyes and drift to sleep.

Beyond Your Touch

I sit on the edge of the bed with my hands over my face as I look out the window. The sun comes to welcome the world to another day. The silence only broken by the thoughts in my head as I remember what I had. I feel my heart though hurt so determined to overcome. I smile at the aspect of whats to come today. I get up take a shower as the water washes over my eyes I can almost see your face in front of me again. My heart beats with passion for a new lover as the I hear the music from my ipod brings my soul to sing, " I look at you and smile cause I am over youuuu!" I smile at these words. I finish my shower and get ready for my day. I look in the mirror, how your smile still lingers. Some how its been 2 months since you left this home of ours and I have managed to live beyond your touch. I smile looking to the new day knowing that you could never destroy me like you tried. I have overcome you and I will not fall to you. I am the best thing your world ever knew. Funny how life works cause your gonna realize it soon and by then its gonna be to late. Its already too late I am a new person. I have grown and this is my world now!

The Sinner's Path

It's another night for the Sinner, as he makes his rounds drink for drink partying the night away. At the end as on every night he finds himself another victim. She has soft skin, sexy curves and all he needs to break her smile. She becomes the apple of his eye, the color in his world and for one night only she is his world. Every morning she finds a note telling her thanks for the beautiful time and he ends it with a lie, "I will see you soon." She smiles, she laughs and she cries. The path of the Sinner continues as she wakes up for her day. Her husband calls and says he will be home soon. She cleans up the house and puts everything back into its place one picture frame at a time. She steps into the shower hopes the water will carry all the dirty ways she's been living away. Truth be told the sins she holds are tattooed on her soul. Never to be leave her scarred heart. Her husband comes home to his house in order, his life back to the perfect way it was before he left. She kisses him and hold's him close tells him how she missed him and that she has needed him every night he was gone. Her husband kisses and talks to her of his time away business meetings, boring conversations and bad food. In the back of his mind flash backs of deceit full ways, lust and nights of pure adultery fill his mind. How Jennifer smelled in his arms. Her laughter as he tickled her in all the right ways. How her lips tasted of strawberry delight. How he enjoyed the touch of her body pressed against his. Now he looks down at his wedding ring remembering how he put it back on right as he walked in the door. Here he is with the woman he loves yet he finds his sinful ways still have a hold of his heart. Little does he know the Sinner's Path is one traveled by everyone. The only difference is how much can your soul take before it breaks......

Breakfast Love

I wake up in the morning to find toast and orange juice sitting there next to me. Its been one whole year since we have been married and still your love is unquestionable. I take a sip of the orange juice and look around for you. I hear the shower going as I walk towards our bathroom. The steam escaping under the door as I open it to find the glass door to the shower fogged up with all the steam. I say, "Good morning my love!" You reply, "Come in babe the water is ready for you and so am I!" I slip off my clothes and opens the door and as the steam is released from beyond the glass shower door your beautiful physique comes into view. Standing there beneath the shower as the water danced down from your shoulders to the rest of your body. I wrap my hand around the back of your neck as I kiss you for the first time this morning my adrenaline rushes through my veins. You lean your back against the wall as I lean under the water slowly kissing you with a smile. Your beauty has got me in a frenzy of passionate desires, as I take your leg in hand, you look into my eyes begging me to take your body to those new levels of satisfaction. Your arms reach over your head and take hold of the shower head gripping it tightly as you feel me slip into your body with such love and passion your body shivers with joy as you let our your first moan. You pull me close whisper in my ears how much you've wanted me to take you. The water streaming down our bodies as you hike yourself up around my body with both legs locked around me, you lean back with your shoulders touching the wall. You look down at me as your body is screaming for more the intense thrust as we rock into each other with the perfect rhythm. I'm pounding into you as our screams and moans serenade the bathroom. You tell me to take you from behind. You slide down me as we share a deep passionate kiss you as you turn around. You arch your back and I slide into your tight juicy peach. Your body quivers and you tell me right there your G spot is being hit in the right position. Your moans increase with intensity as you the water falls upon your back sliding down to me. You yell," Fassteer.r.r...baaaaa...bbbyyyy...", as I begin to thrust and pound into you with such fire and passion. Our bodies reaching the climax that we both have wanted since I walked into the bathroom. Our bodies convulse in unison as you look back at me with the biggest smile on your face. I lean over and slowly kiss, the woman who not only is in my dreams but is the best fantasy I could ever have. We spend the next 30 minutes slowly cleaning each other and sharing soft kisses and talking bout how our lives have come together to this moment together jus you and me. Then we head out of the shower and our day begins.....The best Breakfast is Love....

You Are Still the Life I Hope to Have

We left each others lives two years ago...

Now your living a life with someone new where normalcy has become work, home and sleep. You repeat these steps daily waiting for your weekends of Rock Band, drinks and hanging out with friends. You still read books and get lost in new worlds of adventure. You have come to hate work and left your ambitions of becoming a pharmacist. You once loved going to concerts and now you stay at home.

How things have changed with you...You were so full of life...trying to reach the sky was always your goal...now you sit on earth content...

I have moved to another country where I go to work to watch concerts, meet celebrities, and hang out with people from all walks of life. I still write from the heart full of emotions. I have become cold-hearted to the women who I have come across though they were amazing women. I guard what I have left of myself with my sharp words and devilish smile. Never wanting to be broken in such a way again. I spend my nights in the most random places. I let life take me to a where ever it may lead. Taking risk with my life, I was never prone to do that before. Yet here I am forever changed....

How I have changed with out you...Once cautious now running wild and free...Once a loving heart now one that is willing to destroy without any thought...

We were once our very own rebel unit. You'd let me know what you wanted to accomplish i'd plan it out and we'd take the world by storm. You'd always come up with new things you wanted to do, I'd jus want to lay down with you. We always found new ways to change the world around us. I'd jack my mom's car so we could go to a concert because you wanted to go! We'd spend time together even when our familes hated it! You my vanilla ice cream and me caramel topping. All the inside jokes and personal stories we shared. We had become best friends in love. How lovely it once was.

I don't know how you feel bout me but you are still the life I hope to have...

Come Lay With Me

I am laying in bed watching you fix your hair as you get ready for the day. You go into your closet pick out an outfit for the day. Your just as beautiful as the first day we met. Its been 4 years since that day and still I just wanna tell you come lay with me. We keep things simple and always spice up our lives. You the beauty who has taken my life in your hands and held it firm. I love you...

As I lean back in bed and recall our first date. A stupid movie where we laughed and made of the movie the whole time. Then we grabbed a bit out our favorite Spanish food spot, Abuelo's. I still remember how you had taco sauce streaming down your chin and in that exact moment I knew this woman is everything I could have wanted. I still laugh at how that was my first thought, but truth be told it was. After dinner I had this undying urge to show you my favorite place to sit and think. I took you to my place in the world where I could turn on music lay on the hood of my truck and jus stare up at the sky lost in my mind. We pull up to Lake Travis in my area and I park. I hop up on the hood of my truck help you up and I lean back lay down as you lay on my chest. We talk for hours til the sunset rises and in this moment I look into your eyes, we kiss and I know this is it for me. I have found the woman of my dreams, you.

I come back to reality and your standing there smile on your face, you tell me, "I have 30 minutes baby." I simply say, "Come lay with me." You lay on my chest as I kiss your forehead. I love these moments with you.

My only reply was..."I'm broken..."

I stood there looking down at you as you cried your heart out to me. You gripped at my pants telling me that you loved me, you needed me and how life would never be the same. Your tears soaked the earth as I stood silent. I felt my heart beat as it attempted to show me past memories of our first kiss (oh so soft), our first night together (passionate night of love), our first morning together (the best breakfast in bed), the jokes we shared, the world we created and all the greatest moments we ever shared. Yet here I stood still silent calm almost emotionless as you poured out your heart to me. Asking me, "WHY? WHY LEAVE ME? WHY?" Your emotions reaching out of every pore of your body trying to take hold of me. Let me feel the pain, the misery, the complete and utter sadness within your soul. I look down at you an I walk towards the door. You sit there on your knees barely able to speak as your eyes meet the ground you whisper, "Why?!" I look back at you and my only reply is..."I'm broken..." I am no good at this thing you call love. I know that this is and has been devastating for you. But know my heart does care for you yet this how it must be. I walk out an don't look back, this is how I must live. I am broken and the last pieces of me I want to keep in place. So I leave before the pain, I won't be hurt again....Leaving you to deal with my insecurities alone...here in the house full of our memories as I leave for the last time...

Rebuild Your World

My days have found themselves thinking about you. Your smile has caught me off guard. We share stories on the phone and I find myself happy that you have joined me on this journey called life. You tell me of past days, I tell you of past nights and we become closer with every new word brought into our world. You have this knack for surprising me and I have a knack for kissing you. As our world is being rebuilt we watch as the new sun has brought new life to a city left to its own self destruction.

Let this be notice to all that life will be an unpredictable devastating kiss that can destroy but you can always rebuild your world. I know the pain may remain but it won't hurt as much. Life is ever changing but when you need it you will have the right person there at the right time.

Kodak Moments

There are moments in life that I stopped and freeze framed things in my mind to always remember the memory.

I lay here with you sleeping on my chest. You look so peaceful in your dreams. Here I lay loving this moment. I say a prayer thank God for this blessing this moment for me to live. I thank you for these are the moments a man is meant to live and cherish. You breathe lightly on me and I realize that I have never known love as I do with you. I want this to be the way I live forever. You and me.

In the Background the band plays, the crowd is as live as they can be singing, laughing and screaming at the top of their lungs! I stand there behind you watching you sing with the biggest smile on your face. You heart is cheering with joy of uncontrollable emotion! Your jumping up and down the expressing every bit of the songs played. I am there right with you knowing that this is a moment I will never forget with you.

I lay there and for the first time I feel you lay upon my chest. You look up at me and I am taken back by the beauty that I have found. Our lips finally meet and here on this day I felt the fire rise in me. We have waited for this moment for what seemed like years. I have never been so surprised by a woman as I was when we were finally together. You were even more stunning and amazing then I would have ever thought. Though I had to leave know that I truly could have stayed there with a complete smile in my heart.

Your Name Still Brings a Smile to My Face

I thought it would be another day woke up, brushed my teeth, took a shower, got ready for the day and headed out to the world. I was waiting for my coffee and there outside I saw you walk by. Your smile still an amazing gift to the world. You hit my heart like your kiss to my lips a true butterfly effect. My legs feeling light as I took my coffee walked outside and felt the urge to find you. Your name still rang true in my heart the only woman I have ever loved and your name still brought a smile to my face. My life may never be better then it was but I have managed. You moved on in a path I'm sure I would have love to follow but alas I had to walk this one. I decided that maybe it was better if you lived your life without such a destructive force as me. So I took my coffee and walked in the opposite direction and even though this is the path I chose I still hoped you would come back...to..me.....

I will take your pain

I sit here in the chair across from your bed watching over you as you endure such pain. Your bones ache and your body has succumb to this tragedy. The worst part is your heart has received the worst blow. I can see the tears your soul cries and my heavy heart can't take it. So I kneel down by your bed side and pray. "Dear Lord, today another one of your angels on earth is hurting. I ask only this that you may allow me to carry their sorrows as my own because she is not meant to carry such a load. My heart can take the atrocities that she holds within her... Amen." As I take your hand in mine, I slowly kiss it. I will take your pain for you. Your heart deserves to have happiness again. Tomorrow you can face what may come with a stronger heart. I will do this for you because my love is as strong as it comes... Sleep now angel for you have a new day ahead of you... Goodnight...

I find my self screaming to the sky...

I drop to my knees almost lifeless. My fist tighten as I pound the ground with all the strength in me. I look up to the sky scream out a devastating scream. Here in this grave yard, I find all the emotional anguish tearing at my body. I let myself be engulfed by this self medicated misery. Its been two years and I still find myself here at your grave. Screaming to the sky, "WHYYYYYYYYYYYY?" But he never answer me. My thought of anger, deceit and sadness swell up in my body. Gripping at my soul like a destructive force of nature. I prayed I swear I did. I was a good person I know I was. I asked for you to be saved and take me as my only request. Yet here I am. Alone. There had to be way. I know your up there hating what I have become, but where do I go when my life was, is you... I still wake up with tears already crawling down my face because in my dreams I find the solitude of happiness I will never have with you when I awake. Your side of the bed still sit as it did the day you left. My answers may never be answered and my pain may never leave til I die, but my love will last forever and when I leave this world your legacy will be carried on with in our child. Good night my love, my heart, my wife....my...reas..on..to..bre..athe... I kiss the grass that you now sleep beneath and begin my slow walk back to my new life without you...

Despite My Flaws

Despite My Flaws
You still held strong
Despite My Mistakes
You still show'd love
Despite My Life
You still believed in us.

I was never good for commitment. I used to give amazement then replace it with resentment. You held firm in your belief that I was better below the surface. When your theory was proved wrong still you stood tall. Not willing to give up on your heart against other women you stood apart. Your heart shined even when it felt dark. Hold your title now you have proven to be the CHAMPION OF MY HEART.

Despite My Changes
You still knew
Despite My Vices
You still stayed true
Despite My Misfortune
You still supported your love

Now in this I dedicate this to the Best Woman in my life. Beauty, Brains, and a Bad Ass the only one that could be my wife. Amazingly talented woman that would never be denied. Every obstacle was just another reason to fight. You took love beyond just passion in the bed and brought it to every minute of the day. So here I stand finally holding you in my arms and together these dreams shall be ours. The world cannot stop us from becoming what we are meant to be! Champions of Life.

Despite Myself I finally see what a Real Woman is....You....

I say I miss you....but the truth is I'm jus lonely heart...

I looked beyond the light on my desk. There still in the frame was a picture of us. I loved that picture so there it sat a reminder of loved trapped in the past. I feel my heart twinkle an the sight of your smile. I say I miss you... You were the light at the end of my tunnel. I let it fade as I do all great things in my life. They say you only come across 3 true loves in your life. I can happily say you were teh first. I used to relish in your touch. Relinquish my soul to you. Then like I always do I ran from what was perfect for me to what was worst. Though I have chosen to hide myself from the world. I hope you atleast knew at one point you knew everything I was. I sit here staring beyond this light on my desk and I say I miss you.... but the truth is I'm jus lonely tonight. You were always the easy kill. I can't bring myself to call you because I would jus be using your for the moment. Your worth a lifetime not moments in life. I hope you find what I couldn't bring myself to give. May your smile bring joy to anothers world. Here I sit in my own misery......Live on....Love....Trust....Believe....you were always meant to do better then me.....

Here I sit on this bed looking down at you...

You came to me before your words of doubt or disbelief could leave your mouth. I kissed you soft sensual jus the right amount love. As our eyes closed you leaned in and kissed my chest. I've missed that simple kiss. I kiss your forehead. I look deep into your eyes and I feel the emotions rise in me. I take you in my arms as your legs wrap around me. I carry you to the bed your still wearing your summer dress. As I lay you down I kiss your neck slowly sliding my tongue along to your earlobe. The taste of you is of delightful bliss. Your body rocks in motion as my hand finds your gentle spot. I slide the strap of your dress down as i kiss your shoulders an back to your neck right beneath your chin. I continue to your clavicle then to your beautiful breasts. As my hand continues to rub you in jus the right way your body rocking in slow motion. Your moans are soft almost whispers. You watch me as you feel my breathe lingering over your nipple you feel my tongue slow suck on you and I gently nibble with jus the right amount to turn you on fire. You let a moan letting me know that is jus how you like it. I take off my pants and hike up your dress as you look at me you feel me slide into you and I feel your body soft warm tight. You scream as I begin to thrust deeper inside of you. I pull you close to my chest. You grip on to the sheets with an intense scream. Telling me more! I take you into my arms and lean you against the head board. Your hands extend and take a tight hold on to it as I thrust faster and deeper in to you! Your screaming louder as our sweaty bodies collide. Two passionate lovers expressing everything we've ever felt in these moments of Love! Your body begins to convulse as you feel me get deeper moaning faster louder harder!! You pull me to you telling me don't stop. I pound faster and faster into you harder and hitting you with even more intensity! Our bodies tense as I thrust deep penetrating you with such vigor an our bodies shake with pure bliss reaching the climax that we have both wanted! You smile as we share a few more kisses. We lay down an fall into our sleep, bodies exhausted and in some need of sleep.

Here I sit on the bed looking down at you...wondering, no knowing. As much as I want this to work. This will be the end. A night of passion and calm sleep for the first time in months. I write on a note, "Goodbye my love" slip it under a cup of coffee, leaving the note exposed. Here is where you must stay an out that door is the direction I must take....May you live love and learn...may happiness not elude you... goodbye....to a life that I am not meant to know.....