I Could Lay Here In Your Touch...

Its midnight and here I lay on this bed of ours. I looked down on my chest and there you lay. Asleep to the world around you. A smile creeps to my lips as I realize I could lay here in your touch with no complaints every night till the day I leave this earth. Its moments like this that truly makes me believe that the Lord has somehow touched me and granted me more blessings then i should have. Everyday you surprise me with something new and takes me new heights. Though you may find me saying this more and more as these years continue know that every word is true. You are the best thing in my world. I look forward to the new discovery's of you. I lay my head back with that smile still upon my face and my heart completely feeling that this is the life. I hope everyone gets to experience the beauty that you have brought to me. I thank you Lord for giving such a fulfilling gift of hope and happiness that is within you, beautiful. I lean in kiss your forehead, lean my head back as I close my eyes and drift to sleep.

Beyond Your Touch

I sit on the edge of the bed with my hands over my face as I look out the window. The sun comes to welcome the world to another day. The silence only broken by the thoughts in my head as I remember what I had. I feel my heart though hurt so determined to overcome. I smile at the aspect of whats to come today. I get up take a shower as the water washes over my eyes I can almost see your face in front of me again. My heart beats with passion for a new lover as the I hear the music from my ipod brings my soul to sing, " I look at you and smile cause I am over youuuu!" I smile at these words. I finish my shower and get ready for my day. I look in the mirror, how your smile still lingers. Some how its been 2 months since you left this home of ours and I have managed to live beyond your touch. I smile looking to the new day knowing that you could never destroy me like you tried. I have overcome you and I will not fall to you. I am the best thing your world ever knew. Funny how life works cause your gonna realize it soon and by then its gonna be to late. Its already too late I am a new person. I have grown and this is my world now!

The Sinner's Path

It's another night for the Sinner, as he makes his rounds drink for drink partying the night away. At the end as on every night he finds himself another victim. She has soft skin, sexy curves and all he needs to break her smile. She becomes the apple of his eye, the color in his world and for one night only she is his world. Every morning she finds a note telling her thanks for the beautiful time and he ends it with a lie, "I will see you soon." She smiles, she laughs and she cries. The path of the Sinner continues as she wakes up for her day. Her husband calls and says he will be home soon. She cleans up the house and puts everything back into its place one picture frame at a time. She steps into the shower hopes the water will carry all the dirty ways she's been living away. Truth be told the sins she holds are tattooed on her soul. Never to be leave her scarred heart. Her husband comes home to his house in order, his life back to the perfect way it was before he left. She kisses him and hold's him close tells him how she missed him and that she has needed him every night he was gone. Her husband kisses and talks to her of his time away business meetings, boring conversations and bad food. In the back of his mind flash backs of deceit full ways, lust and nights of pure adultery fill his mind. How Jennifer smelled in his arms. Her laughter as he tickled her in all the right ways. How her lips tasted of strawberry delight. How he enjoyed the touch of her body pressed against his. Now he looks down at his wedding ring remembering how he put it back on right as he walked in the door. Here he is with the woman he loves yet he finds his sinful ways still have a hold of his heart. Little does he know the Sinner's Path is one traveled by everyone. The only difference is how much can your soul take before it breaks......

Breakfast Love

I wake up in the morning to find toast and orange juice sitting there next to me. Its been one whole year since we have been married and still your love is unquestionable. I take a sip of the orange juice and look around for you. I hear the shower going as I walk towards our bathroom. The steam escaping under the door as I open it to find the glass door to the shower fogged up with all the steam. I say, "Good morning my love!" You reply, "Come in babe the water is ready for you and so am I!" I slip off my clothes and opens the door and as the steam is released from beyond the glass shower door your beautiful physique comes into view. Standing there beneath the shower as the water danced down from your shoulders to the rest of your body. I wrap my hand around the back of your neck as I kiss you for the first time this morning my adrenaline rushes through my veins. You lean your back against the wall as I lean under the water slowly kissing you with a smile. Your beauty has got me in a frenzy of passionate desires, as I take your leg in hand, you look into my eyes begging me to take your body to those new levels of satisfaction. Your arms reach over your head and take hold of the shower head gripping it tightly as you feel me slip into your body with such love and passion your body shivers with joy as you let our your first moan. You pull me close whisper in my ears how much you've wanted me to take you. The water streaming down our bodies as you hike yourself up around my body with both legs locked around me, you lean back with your shoulders touching the wall. You look down at me as your body is screaming for more the intense thrust as we rock into each other with the perfect rhythm. I'm pounding into you as our screams and moans serenade the bathroom. You tell me to take you from behind. You slide down me as we share a deep passionate kiss you as you turn around. You arch your back and I slide into your tight juicy peach. Your body quivers and you tell me right there your G spot is being hit in the right position. Your moans increase with intensity as you the water falls upon your back sliding down to me. You yell," Fassteer.r.r...baaaaa...bbbyyyy...", as I begin to thrust and pound into you with such fire and passion. Our bodies reaching the climax that we both have wanted since I walked into the bathroom. Our bodies convulse in unison as you look back at me with the biggest smile on your face. I lean over and slowly kiss, the woman who not only is in my dreams but is the best fantasy I could ever have. We spend the next 30 minutes slowly cleaning each other and sharing soft kisses and talking bout how our lives have come together to this moment together jus you and me. Then we head out of the shower and our day begins.....The best Breakfast is Love....

You Are Still the Life I Hope to Have

We left each others lives two years ago...

Now your living a life with someone new where normalcy has become work, home and sleep. You repeat these steps daily waiting for your weekends of Rock Band, drinks and hanging out with friends. You still read books and get lost in new worlds of adventure. You have come to hate work and left your ambitions of becoming a pharmacist. You once loved going to concerts and now you stay at home.

How things have changed with you...You were so full of life...trying to reach the sky was always your goal...now you sit on earth content...

I have moved to another country where I go to work to watch concerts, meet celebrities, and hang out with people from all walks of life. I still write from the heart full of emotions. I have become cold-hearted to the women who I have come across though they were amazing women. I guard what I have left of myself with my sharp words and devilish smile. Never wanting to be broken in such a way again. I spend my nights in the most random places. I let life take me to a where ever it may lead. Taking risk with my life, I was never prone to do that before. Yet here I am forever changed....

How I have changed with out you...Once cautious now running wild and free...Once a loving heart now one that is willing to destroy without any thought...

We were once our very own rebel unit. You'd let me know what you wanted to accomplish i'd plan it out and we'd take the world by storm. You'd always come up with new things you wanted to do, I'd jus want to lay down with you. We always found new ways to change the world around us. I'd jack my mom's car so we could go to a concert because you wanted to go! We'd spend time together even when our familes hated it! You my vanilla ice cream and me caramel topping. All the inside jokes and personal stories we shared. We had become best friends in love. How lovely it once was.

I don't know how you feel bout me but you are still the life I hope to have...

Come Lay With Me

I am laying in bed watching you fix your hair as you get ready for the day. You go into your closet pick out an outfit for the day. Your just as beautiful as the first day we met. Its been 4 years since that day and still I just wanna tell you come lay with me. We keep things simple and always spice up our lives. You the beauty who has taken my life in your hands and held it firm. I love you...

As I lean back in bed and recall our first date. A stupid movie where we laughed and made of the movie the whole time. Then we grabbed a bit out our favorite Spanish food spot, Abuelo's. I still remember how you had taco sauce streaming down your chin and in that exact moment I knew this woman is everything I could have wanted. I still laugh at how that was my first thought, but truth be told it was. After dinner I had this undying urge to show you my favorite place to sit and think. I took you to my place in the world where I could turn on music lay on the hood of my truck and jus stare up at the sky lost in my mind. We pull up to Lake Travis in my area and I park. I hop up on the hood of my truck help you up and I lean back lay down as you lay on my chest. We talk for hours til the sunset rises and in this moment I look into your eyes, we kiss and I know this is it for me. I have found the woman of my dreams, you.

I come back to reality and your standing there smile on your face, you tell me, "I have 30 minutes baby." I simply say, "Come lay with me." You lay on my chest as I kiss your forehead. I love these moments with you.

My only reply was..."I'm broken..."

I stood there looking down at you as you cried your heart out to me. You gripped at my pants telling me that you loved me, you needed me and how life would never be the same. Your tears soaked the earth as I stood silent. I felt my heart beat as it attempted to show me past memories of our first kiss (oh so soft), our first night together (passionate night of love), our first morning together (the best breakfast in bed), the jokes we shared, the world we created and all the greatest moments we ever shared. Yet here I stood still silent calm almost emotionless as you poured out your heart to me. Asking me, "WHY? WHY LEAVE ME? WHY?" Your emotions reaching out of every pore of your body trying to take hold of me. Let me feel the pain, the misery, the complete and utter sadness within your soul. I look down at you an I walk towards the door. You sit there on your knees barely able to speak as your eyes meet the ground you whisper, "Why?!" I look back at you and my only reply is..."I'm broken..." I am no good at this thing you call love. I know that this is and has been devastating for you. But know my heart does care for you yet this how it must be. I walk out an don't look back, this is how I must live. I am broken and the last pieces of me I want to keep in place. So I leave before the pain, I won't be hurt again....Leaving you to deal with my insecurities alone...here in the house full of our memories as I leave for the last time...